Free Will

I sometimes feel, in fact ponder for the reason of my existence.
Why the super power made me a human? Why he gave me soul of a human? For what reasons am I here? What am I suppose to do here on this holy earth? The more the answers I get, double the number of questions my inner self creates.

Are we all really in need to live like humans? Humans with all the power to outsource our feelings.

Why is that people have become and are wanting to become day by day so called practical, Why cant they simply lead a life with Simplicity ? Why is there a need of being Pretentious? Why is that we all can't live without boundaries. Why just cant we all practice free will. Why cant we only have the good things enhancing love, peace, forgiveness, devotion.

Why is that we need to kill the beautiful feeling we humans are naturally gifted. Why cant we just do whatever we "really feel like" doing. Why cant we live in free willed world? Why is that a human has to behave in such a way he is expected to and not the way he whole heartedly feels like?

When he has been gifted with the power of feeling his surroundings then why does he have to pretend ? Why can't we be always straight forward, frank ?

I Don't understand the relevence of what I have posted !

Its almost 2 a.m and I am wondering whats keeping me awake so late. Is it that am now habitual of not sleeping before 2 a.m on any given day or is it that constantly there's something that is making me ponder. Actually, both. There have been zillions of things going on my mind but nothing to declare as a thought provoking action/idea. I have been lately worried about a lot many things. To start with.....Whether i would be ever able to transform all my thoughts, ideas, wishes and of-course fantasies into Actions ? To be honest, straight down my heart i get this feeling that i have always been a blessed, lucky girl. I would be able to do whatever i plan to. But then suddenly the question pops up. How ? When?

There have been so many instances where I really wanted to do something. Be it anything. From wanting to change the way the government works to the way a beggar begs....from the way people fight on the roads to the way people showoff.....from the way society behaves superstitiously to the way the thugs and dhongis make fool out people...from the way people without giving a thought cut down 100's of trees in a go to the way people plant tiny little plants and forget to water them. CHANGE is the word. The government, starting from the way the judiciary works, the way the legislations are drafted and then executed after months or even years to the way a poor begs for money! All require a Reform. An alteration. A change that changes the outlook of people, particularly the citizens of our country. By now, you must be wondering how and basically why should there be a change a beggar begs. The poverty in our country is in such a bad condition that unlike pre independence, a beggar doesn't anymore begs for himself alone.. they are made to beg.

The question is Why? Why has the government not provided life support to them? Why has it let a begging industry flourish? Why hasn't there been proper, reformed regulations for such a thing. I understand that no doubt its easy to point out fingers and raise numerous questions and voice on the government in power. But then thats where our (the youth !) role starts. We definitely have to raise our voices to waken our lazy sleeping government. Don't you think so ?